You knew… 

 

You knew,
this wasn’t what
I really wanted.

You knew,
I yearned to leave
but didn’t know how.

You knew,
I would have stayed
mostly out of loyalty.

You knew,
I always tried to see the good in all circumstances.

You knew,
I swallowed more than I deserved
because I abhor confrontation.

You knew,
my frustration and tiredness
of the entire situation.

You knew,
my inner desires,
my passions and my goals.

You knew,
I’m not much for fanfare
but gave me a dramatic exit nonetheless.

You knew,
I wouldn’t understand
your methods in the moment.

You knew,
in the end this path
would make me stronger.

You knew,
it all and so you set me free.
Thank you Lord. Amen.

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Image source: Digital Art by A ~ 2018
Contents compiled: February 27 2018
Originally published: April 6 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

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The Silent Worrior

 

She sat
for what seemed like forever,
flat on the floor
with her back against the wall.

Her hands ached,
her shoulders were tight,
her legs were numb,
her feet were swollen.

Her spirit willed her to move
but her body resisted.
Life for her has never been easy
and this was no different.

Her journey ahead
triggered a sense of panic.
Her chest tightened,
her stomach was in knots.

She was so tired
of the endless struggle.
She wanted it all to stop
but quitting was not an option.

The tears filled her eyes
as she prayed for strength.
She has learned very well
to push through the pain.

One day things will get better…
Her faith is strong!
She believes there’s a reason
for everything, even this!

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: October 20 2017
Originally published: April 12 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

While seeking happiness I found joy! 

 

The beauty of your light
shines through
the windows of my heart.

The richness of your love
fills the depleted reservoirs
of my thirsty soul.

I seek your presence
in search of peace,
happiness and wisdom.

I feel your grace
washing over me,
forgiving my errant ways.

I praise your name
in joyful gratitude
for your abundant blessings,
and your everlasting love.

I cherish each new day
for it is one more chance
to share your love.

You understand my desires
and give me more
that I ever expected.

You anticipate my every need
and meet me with open arms
blessing me with your abundance.

Lord, you are wonderful!
And so I thank now
in Jesus name, Amen.

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: April 5 2018
Originally published: April 6 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

I’ve not been ‘well’… 

 

Hi, 

I’ve been struggling the last few months with a bit of depression. It took me a long time to figure out what was going on but after careful analysis all the classic symptoms are there:

  • loss of interest in things that once gave me great joy (E.g. Meditating, music, blogging)
  • sleeping uncontrollably (to escape reality) 
  • Not caring much about general appearance (nothing to see here, move along) 
  • Over eating (to feel something other than pain) 
  • Rapid weight gain (eating all the wrong foods) 
  • Foul mood for days on end (wallow and self pity) 
  • Keeping to myself (not wanting to infect others) 
  • Feeling like a mindless drone – – numb (better not to feel if all I felt was pain) 
  • Sad (wondering what I did to deserve this) 
  • Constantly felling like crying (disbelief that this is my life) 

The last 7 years have been brutal! I’ve endured so many levels of pain and agony that had I not known there is a God, and there is a life beyond this unforgiving world, I may have taken the easy way out and ended it all. But I’m not a quitter! I’m not one to stay down for long. I’m not one to accept defeat easily for I know there is one mightier than I who will fight for me.

Friends, I’ve been away because there has been an enormous struggle within. I’ve been away because things have been hard. I’ve been away because I’ve been consumed with tough decisions. I’ve been away because my brain has had no time to relax. I’ve been away because I’ve been worried about my safety. I’ve been away because I’ve not been myself. 

Please know, I haven’t forgotten about you, I simply have not been emotionally and mentally well. I’m slowly finding my way back to the things that once gave me joy. I’m slowly shifting my focus from the chaos to the beautiful things in my life. I’m slowly learning the joy in living a life of gratitude. I’m slowly finding my way back to you. Just give me time…

 

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: February 18 2018
Originally published: February 19 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

A one-sentence story: Fierce woman 

 

Never a follower
of the crowd, 
she walks to the beat 
of her own drum. 

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: September 8 2017
Originally published: September 8 2017
Copyright © 2017 Anonymously Yours


Wind-swept

 

She stormed in
windswept and out of breath.
It’s been that way for her lately;
she’s juggling a lot
but somehow seems to pull it off.

Logistics and lack of time
get the best of her sometimes
but by the grace of God
she keeps pressing on.

She’s a special person —
tough yet sweet,
competitive yet fair,
fierce yet humble.

I like what I see in her,
yet it amazes me that sometimes
she doesn’t realize her own worth.

She’s made of ‘good stock’;
she’s a gem to be treasured;
she’s a fierce worrior;
she’s my dear friend.

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: July 3 2017
Originally published: July 3 2017
Copyright © 2017 Anonymously Yours


Random Act Of Kindness: June 11 2017

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She stood alone at the bus stop;
a new girl in town;
taking life one day at at time;
working towards a better tomorrow.

An unassuming gentleman
approached her politely,
then handed her something —
it was a gift card.

She looked up from her open hand
to see the ‘good Samaritan’ walking away.
She thanked him humbly
and he graciously tipped his baseball cap
as he returned to his parked car,
never to be seen again.

Assuming he’d used most of the funds
and just offered her what was left,
she checked the balance
to see how this good deed
could be put to use.

To her surprise,
the card carried
the full balance of $100.
She was dumbfounded!!!

In her time of need,
God sent an angel.
In her time of distress,
her burden was made
just a little bit lighter
so she could keep pressing on.

It may be June 2017
but I’m pleased to know
miracles still happen.
God gives us blessings everyday,
we simply have to
open our hands to receive them.

What Random Act Of Kindness
have you ever given or received?

 


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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: June 10 2017
Originally published: June 11 2017
Copyright © 2017 Anonymously Yours