You knew… 

 

You knew,
this wasn’t what
I really wanted.

You knew,
I yearned to leave
but didn’t know how.

You knew,
I would have stayed
mostly out of loyalty.

You knew,
I always tried to see the good in all circumstances.

You knew,
I swallowed more than I deserved
because I abhor confrontation.

You knew,
my frustration and tiredness
of the entire situation.

You knew,
my inner desires,
my passions and my goals.

You knew,
I’m not much for fanfare
but gave me a dramatic exit nonetheless.

You knew,
I wouldn’t understand
your methods in the moment.

You knew,
in the end this path
would make me stronger.

You knew,
it all and so you set me free.
Thank you Lord. Amen.

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Image source: Digital Art by A ~ 2018
Contents compiled: February 27 2018
Originally published: April 6 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

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While seeking happiness I found joy! 

 

The beauty of your light
shines through
the windows of my heart.

The richness of your love
fills the depleted reservoirs
of my thirsty soul.

I seek your presence
in search of peace,
happiness and wisdom.

I feel your grace
washing over me,
forgiving my errant ways.

I praise your name
in joyful gratitude
for your abundant blessings,
and your everlasting love.

I cherish each new day
for it is one more chance
to share your love.

You understand my desires
and give me more
that I ever expected.

You anticipate my every need
and meet me with open arms
blessing me with your abundance.

Lord, you are wonderful!
And so I thank now
in Jesus name, Amen.

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: April 5 2018
Originally published: April 6 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

I’ve not been ‘well’… 

 

Hi, 

I’ve been struggling the last few months with a bit of depression. It took me a long time to figure out what was going on but after careful analysis all the classic symptoms are there:

  • loss of interest in things that once gave me great joy (E.g. Meditating, music, blogging)
  • sleeping uncontrollably (to escape reality) 
  • Not caring much about general appearance (nothing to see here, move along) 
  • Over eating (to feel something other than pain) 
  • Rapid weight gain (eating all the wrong foods) 
  • Foul mood for days on end (wallow and self pity) 
  • Keeping to myself (not wanting to infect others) 
  • Feeling like a mindless drone – – numb (better not to feel if all I felt was pain) 
  • Sad (wondering what I did to deserve this) 
  • Constantly felling like crying (disbelief that this is my life) 

The last 7 years have been brutal! I’ve endured so many levels of pain and agony that had I not known there is a God, and there is a life beyond this unforgiving world, I may have taken the easy way out and ended it all. But I’m not a quitter! I’m not one to stay down for long. I’m not one to accept defeat easily for I know there is one mightier than I who will fight for me.

Friends, I’ve been away because there has been an enormous struggle within. I’ve been away because things have been hard. I’ve been away because I’ve been consumed with tough decisions. I’ve been away because my brain has had no time to relax. I’ve been away because I’ve been worried about my safety. I’ve been away because I’ve not been myself. 

Please know, I haven’t forgotten about you, I simply have not been emotionally and mentally well. I’m slowly finding my way back to the things that once gave me joy. I’m slowly shifting my focus from the chaos to the beautiful things in my life. I’m slowly learning the joy in living a life of gratitude. I’m slowly finding my way back to you. Just give me time…

 

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: February 18 2018
Originally published: February 19 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

Making Sweet Memories

 

No alarms
to rush us out of bed.

No responsibilities
that can’t wait til tomorrow instead.

Just another rainy Saturday
to lounge about in pjs.

Just another lazy day
for making wonderful memories.

 

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Image source: Google images/pintrest
Contents compiled: February 17 2018
Originally published: February 17 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

I like it here… 

 

I like it here…
The atmosphere is mellow,
I can relax and breathe slow,
I can converse one on one.
I can chill and enjoy the ride.

I like it here…
I’m myself again.
The hurt has turned to healing.
The sadness has turned to laughter.
The heartache has been replaced by butterflies.

I like it here…
It feels great to ‘start fresh’.
It feels great to forget the past.
It feels great to be by your side.
It feels great to make fantasies real.

I like it here…
There’s peace, there’s laughter;
There’s fun, there’s intense passion;
There’s a melding of our minds;
There’s us wanting more of each other.

I like it here…
I feel comfortable on your arms.
I light up when I see your smile.
I see hope when I look in your eyes.
I am blessed to have you in my life.

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: June 19 2017
Originally published: July 4 2017
Copyright © 2017 Anonymously Yours