I’ve not been ‘well’… 

 

Hi, 

I’ve been struggling the last few months with a bit of depression. It took me a long time to figure out what was going on but after careful analysis all the classic symptoms are there:

  • loss of interest in things that once gave me great joy (E.g. Meditating, music, blogging)
  • sleeping uncontrollably (to escape reality) 
  • Not caring much about general appearance (nothing to see here, move along) 
  • Over eating (to feel something other than pain) 
  • Rapid weight gain (eating all the wrong foods) 
  • Foul mood for days on end (wallow and self pity) 
  • Keeping to myself (not wanting to infect others) 
  • Feeling like a mindless drone – – numb (better not to feel if all I felt was pain) 
  • Sad (wondering what I did to deserve this) 
  • Constantly felling like crying (disbelief that this is my life) 

The last 7 years have been brutal! I’ve endured so many levels of pain and agony that had I not known there is a God, and there is a life beyond this unforgiving world, I may have taken the easy way out and ended it all. But I’m not a quitter! I’m not one to stay down for long. I’m not one to accept defeat easily for I know there is one mightier than I who will fight for me.

Friends, I’ve been away because there has been an enormous struggle within. I’ve been away because things have been hard. I’ve been away because I’ve been consumed with tough decisions. I’ve been away because my brain has had no time to relax. I’ve been away because I’ve been worried about my safety. I’ve been away because I’ve not been myself. 

Please know, I haven’t forgotten about you, I simply have not been emotionally and mentally well. I’m slowly finding my way back to the things that once gave me joy. I’m slowly shifting my focus from the chaos to the beautiful things in my life. I’m slowly learning the joy in living a life of gratitude. I’m slowly finding my way back to you. Just give me time…

 

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Contents compiled: February 18 2018
Originally published: February 19 2018
Copyright © 2017-2018 Anonymously Yours

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Gazing at your eyes

 

Running my fingers
through your hair…

Tracing the outline
of your dimpled cheeks…

Gazing at your eyes
as they stare into mine…

Watching that seductive smile
grow across your lips…

Knowing you’re about to do
something rediculously amazing…

You get me every time…

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: June 19 2017
Originally published: July 22 2017
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I like it here… 

 

I like it here…
The atmosphere is mellow,
I can relax and breathe slow,
I can converse one on one.
I can chill and enjoy the ride.

I like it here…
I’m myself again.
The hurt has turned to healing.
The sadness has turned to laughter.
The heartache has been replaced by butterflies.

I like it here…
It feels great to ‘start fresh’.
It feels great to forget the past.
It feels great to be by your side.
It feels great to make fantasies real.

I like it here…
There’s peace, there’s laughter;
There’s fun, there’s intense passion;
There’s a melding of our minds;
There’s us wanting more of each other.

I like it here…
I feel comfortable on your arms.
I light up when I see your smile.
I see hope when I look in your eyes.
I am blessed to have you in my life.

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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: June 19 2017
Originally published: July 4 2017
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I needed this!

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Wondering aimlessly;
Forgetting the search for a moment;
Determined to break free of the chain that bound me to the hurt and pain,
only to stumble into your loving arms.

I needed you.
I needed us.
I needed this!

 


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Image source: Google images
Contents compiled: June 27 2017
Originally published: June 27 2017
Copyright © 2017 Anonymously Yours